tetsuuyya:

In the beginning of chapter 43, Siwon is telling Kang Jinha to wait, and he gets that he is worried about him, but is there really a need for them to live together. Siwon says Jinha can’t do this when he’s so unprepared, and he says that what happened only occurred in his dreams with XL, so if he’s more careful he will be fine. Jinha asks what about Donghyun, and says there’s no guarantee that what happened to Donghyun wouldn’t happen to Siwon. He says XL is more dangerous than Siwon thinks, and he doesn’t know what he might do in reality; that’s why he can’t leave Siwon on his own, and he tells him to stay by his side, that way Jinha will be able to protect him. Siwon then starts thinking about what would happen if XL were to do something to Kang Jinha, and Siwon decides he will stay with him until the situation gets better.

Kang Jinha tells him to unpack his stuff so they can go buy groceries or something. Jinha tells him to put everything in the cart that Siwon needs or feels like eating, while Siwon feels pressured, and starts subconsciously putting things in the cart, shocked that he put so much in. Siwon is looking to buy fruits and Jinha tells him to put in whatever he wants to eat, when Siwon asks him what fruits he wants. Then Siwon compares himself and the lady speaking to her husband about fruits, who says he likes apples; Siwon gets embarrassed.

Siwon tries to hurry up and buy what he wants so he can leave the embarrassing situation and suggests to a confused Kang Jinha if they could just order something for dinner, and Jinha suggest Siwon should rest for awhile. Siwon is confused and asks if there’s anything he can help Jinha with, and Jinha tells him to go and sit down.

Kang Jinha makes dinner, which Siwon is impressed by the caliber of it. Siwon is told by Jinha to eat it before it gets cold, and Siwon says it’s absolutely delicious, and that if he could eat this kind of food everyday, he would gladly live here forever. Kang Jinha says “I’ll Make It For You Forever.”

Siwon says he will do the dishes, and Jinha says he’ll do it instead, and that Siwon can just sort through the stuff they bought just now. Siwon finds a box of EXTRA-LARGE XD Condoms, and Siwon tries to play it off when Jinha asks what’s wrong, when Siwon makes an exclamation. Siwon thinks to himself, wondering what he should do and when and why did Jinha buy condoms, and that didn’t Jinha say he wouldn’t do anything.

Jinha asks Siwon what’s wrong when they’re on the couch, because Siwon is so far away and awkward. Siwon says it’s nothing, and thinks to himself that it’s so awkward all of a sudden, and that he’s going crazy. Jinha offers to watch TV with him, and Siwon says okay, asking Jinha to sit a little further away because there’s a lot of space beside him. Jinha says there isn’t though, and for Siwon to watch whatever he feels like watching. Siwon freaks out when the show on TV is BROMANCE MOUNTAIN, asking what the hell it is.

The show showcases two men who resemble XL and Jinha, and they are making out, Siwon changes the channel to another show which has a character saying he likes men, to which makes Siwon change the channel to another, of which the title is: Between Friends? Siwon thinks about how awkward it is now, and then says he’s not sure if it’s okay to ask Jinha this, but he’s curious about when Jinha realized he liked guys. Jinha says he’s not sure, and he just realized it naturally, and that he didn’t particulary deny it. Siwon is silent and thinks back to when he saw Jinha confess his love to XL, saying no one can come above XL in his heart.

Siwon thinks to himself about how Jinha made it sound as though XL was just a friend to him, and wonders about what he saw in the dream with XL. He thinks that even if he asks Jinha about it, whether he says that they were dating or not, he will probably be upset all the same. He thinks that in the first place does he even have the right, because Jinha and him aren’t even dating. Jinha says that even so, he knew if for sure at that time, the night of the MT when Siwon kissed him, he thought his heart was going to explode. Siwon is silent for awhile and then says there’s not much to see anyways on TV, asking if they should sleep early today. Jinha tells him to wash up first, and Siwon says what, and asks why.

Jinha asks if he’s going to sleep without washing up, to which Siwon replies that he’ll wash up first. He marvels at how Jinha has a bathtub in his house, and that since Jinha is just a student, how is he living in this kind of house. He thinks how he really wants to soak his body in the bathtub, and gets in since it’s been a while since he’s been able to. Siwon sighs in happiness, but then thinks about how crazy awkward he feels, and that it hasn’t even been a day and it’s already like this, what should he do in the future. He wonders if he should just sneak away tomorrow, and that he will be more self-conscious after seeing the shows about the men. Siwon then wonders if that’s even really possible between men.

In the last panels, Kang Jinha just barges in on Siwon lmao.

FUCKING DIVE IN, KANG JINHA! Please wreck Siwon’s ass.